For the record I'm straight but I heard about this from a friend and decided to check it out. It's like being in the center of a hurricane lol. From what experience I've had, love is the strangest mix of emotions and I won't try to rationalize it. I've felt all sorts of ways from love, but I've agreed to myself to never let myself compromise on my values for it. They're too important to me. You probably feel upset and kind of bitter towards him right now. I know what it's like to have someone who is so amazingly good in a love situation but at the same time is unwilling to accept things about you. It's complex that way. It doesn't necessarily make him a bad person, and it doesn't make you wrong. The thing I can say is that I wouldn't be happy in a relationship like that. I feel really distanced from a lot of leftist friends; they define want to define you by everything it seems, your race, your ethnicity, your sexuality, and lump you with the crowd. I'm sure it doesn't make them bad people but there have been painful times where I've had to let go of people because I knew it wouldn't work. Don't let it keep you up thinking about how things could have been. We're always making choices, they have different impacts. But this isn't the end, and it isn't your only.