Yeah...give it another year.

I was straight a year ago, and I thought I watched these videos because sissies are hot.

Somewhere along the line, the realization came that the girls in the videos are having so much more fun than the guys, it's unbelievable. And with that realization, came a curiosity...

A year later I'm spending all my time at home dressed in drag. I don't even remember the last time I masturbated by stroking my clit...I exclusively do myself anally nowadays. I do still ejaculate, but I don't "shoot" cum anymore, only dribble, and the loads are getting smaller, even though I only allow myself release once every two weeks or so.

My penis is clearly shrinking, and I don't even know if I can get hard anymore, seeing as it's been so long since the last time I saw my cock fully erect.

When I get turned on, I get that warm and tingly feeling in my pussy more so than in my clit. I think I have essentially re-conditioned my body to associate sexual pleasure with the asshole rather than the cock, and it's starting to show.

It's getting harder and harder to put male clothes on when I go out. The idea of having to slip out of the female garb just fills me with sadness, and I am starting to find that male clothing feels revolting on my body, and my mood takes a nosedive when I have to wear it.

I am getting used to the idea of going on HRT, because continuing to live as a male seems almost an absurdity at this point. I mean, I even look like a girl now. My body is completely smooth. Throughout my feminisation I've lost all excess weight, and my previously bulky frame has been transformed into an androgyne form.

And you know what...I fucking love it. I never felt so good about my sexuality before. My sexuality as a male was always associated with a lot of grasping, striving, always obsessing getting girls. Now I feel like I have nothing left to chase. I have the object of my desire right here with me, all the time - because I have become it.