Yeah I feel like I would just be pretending like I do in the rest of my social interactions. Pretending to smile and laugh and what not. This thing has also zapped my sex drive so there’s that too.

Though at the same time going through this world alone is something else.

Prior to my psychosis episodes I had a partner a family unit/jobs with people I could engage with. Had a very interesting period in between the two that was filled with wild experiences. Crazy amounts of growth and what not. Now I’m just alone and empty not driven to improve as I usually am. Though so many things have happened simultaneously that I’m unsure what exactly if one thing I can attribute it too.

Psychosis is a wild ride.