Sorry for venting, just needed to say somewhere that I am not okay because people around me seems to not realize and it's hurting me even more... I've been slowly drowning in depression since middle school until last year when I was able to put words on my feelings, discovered gender dysphoria and that trans was a thing. It tooks me so much time to realize what was obvious and after that I still doubted it for so long. Really came from great future kid to messy life where all I do is killing time and time is killing me. Now I'm finally ready to make something about it and the first professional I met said "nah, wait half a year more"... It is definitely not the warm help I was hoping for

(No need to send trans/suicide hotline i'm from Europe and I can't even speak english fluently)