Thats one of my biggest worries to be honest; last thing I want to do is become physically or emotionally dependant on this stuff.
Its a weird one. I've spent so long getting to this point and I can confidently say I know what needs to be done for me personally to get over anxiety, but its one thing saying and another thing doing, you know?
I think with me I'm almost too "proud" to embarrass myself or to fail, especially since I've endured both hundreds of times since being on this anxiety path. I admit that reading through the comments on Phenibut had me romanticising about the drug before buying and thats never really a good thing... At the end of the day, the path to freedom will still require just as much hard work.
Went off topic there slightly, but as for your question; I'm not in desperate need and I could manage without, but I imagine it taking me a very long time to be free from anxiety at the rate I'm going at.
As for an update: I took a split dose of around 600-700mg yesterday. It wasn't the best day to start as I only had 4 hours sleep the night before due to finishing a uni assignment. Other than making me feel extremely tired, I had no particular urge to be social. I forced myself to get out the house by going shopping and it felt quite enjoyable to walk confidently upright.
Later that night after watching a couple personal experiences based on Phenibut, I became inspired to either vlog or voice record myself (opted to voice record while on a walk as I'm not comfortable with flatmates hearing me through the walls talking to my self just yet... anxiety.
I believe that this drug would be more effective in the right setting. If I'm to take it, I'll make sure to exercise my anxious habits next time so that I make actually progress. If it means guzzling down the drug and not living the life of a non-anxious person until strong effects kick in to allow me to do so, I won't bother - thats already relying on the drug as a crutch, I only want subtle, unnoticeable effects so that I can take actual credit for the progress I make.
As for today, I feel pretty groggy and hungover, but I wouldn't say that I feel necessarily depressed or anxious. I'm sure if I was to force myself out as normal I'd brighten up - thats what I plan to do later. Right now, I'm still in bed however :( I feel particularly energy sapped and I've got more assignment to work at.
Anyway, real thanks for the comment and I appreciate your concern. Its made me want to take this shit a lot more seriously, I dear not abuse it for any reason.