Sounds like anxiety. And it can be so paralyzing. I know I have had such bad anxiety like this before where one of my legs will start to feel like it won’t work properly and I start walking with a weird gait. I started getting just the most terrifying panic attacks in college and then I would terrified I would get them, and all of this has prevented me from doing a lot.

Idk how bad it gets for you but when I got on an antidepressant ( I was very against it for many years), it was like, “oh… is this what it’s like to just drive my car and get somewhere? Is this what it’s like to go to the grocery store and shop without being on the verge of breakdown? “ it’s crazy to just start to live so much more in the present moment. There were times I couldn’t make eye contact with people or I would have to go to the bathroom in the middle of my job multiple times and practice breathing exercises.

I know medication isn’t for everyone and doesn’t work for everyone, but it definitely has given me a better quality of life and a chance to work on my anxiety. Also, running helps too.