I want to leave my past behind. Like forever. Sometimes memories flood my conscience and it takes me days to recover. I also pick up habits like daydreaming, smoking, gazing into nothing which obviously affects my mental health and studies. My parents are the last people I want to talk to about anything regarding my life and am a single child. I am not good at socialising and every time I try not to hurt others I end up hurting one or two or all. I have had 4 failed relationships which bothers me sometimes because all of them failed because of the other person. One guy was of a lower caste to me (am an Indian ) the next one couldn’t survive a LDR, the third one told me that am taller than him and that his parents would object to that and the last relationship failed because of me making a different career choice and which didn’t sit well with the guy.

Now, I really wish I could go back and take my revenge because I have got my heart broken over and over again and I am finding it unable to see the good in people. I need help.