TW: loss

A little back story. I have 2 daughters born 04 and 07. Which took 2 years to get pregnant each time. Then found out I got pregnant very quickly right off of birth control in 08. Our excitement quickly turned to tears when we found out that we had blighted ovum at out 13 week appointment. After a couple years of not trying due to stress and sadness and a huge cross country move we started trying again. 7 years and no success. I have PCOS so I know it can be difficult to conceive. Then back on birth control for a year and a half. Once again got pregnant right off of birth control in December of last year. So much excitement then another miscarriage at just under 6 weeks.

Now on to my current situation: Found out I was pregnant a couple weeks ago. I am 5+5 today. I have had some slight nausea, some tiredness, normal everyday things will sometimes smell odd or off but not always, very tender breasts, and (TMI) a white almost creamy vaginal discharge. No pain or itching with it. After 2 losses I am terrified of another. I stress about so much. I try to keep my mind preoccupied but it’s hard. I was so sick when I was pregnant with my girls. My morning sickness almost always ment projectile vomiting. I was so tired I would sleep most days away. I got a great nights sleep last night and woke up feeling so refreshed. My nausea hasn’t set in so far today and I’m worried about that. When I should just be glad that I don’t have it. My breasts are still tender but yesterday was horrible. They hurt just walking. Is it normal for pregnancy symptoms to ebb and flow? I don’t remember much from my first 2 pregnancies because they were such a long time ago and that was before any losses so I was completely naive. My husband keeps telling me to stay calm and positive. He is so confident. I wish I was as confident as him. My first doctor’s appointment is May 17th. I will be 9+1. It seems so far away. I want this baby so badly. Am I stressing g over nothing?