Religion screwed up my formulate years when it comes to dating and things like that. OLD never really got to where I was exchanging messages with another person. And then just personal things never escalated upward good enough.

I don't think there should really even be any thoughts in my direction. Just another thing on the internet. I managed to end up being a scrote and a failure in the system that we have and I deserve the dread I feel until I can accomplish something to change it.

Yes I did do the therapy and all that but it doesn't really change anything cuz I have a rooted belief that if I am a low value male than I kinda deserve to feel like shit.