I've only recently come to let this side of me free . . .for years my fantasies were dark in nature but I stayed in the vanilla arena, denying my truth. Eventually after several unsatisfactory relationships, I couldn't run from those desires any longer and I began to dip my toes into the muddy waters.

Losing control was the key, when that is taken(or surrendered) from you, all societal restraints go with it and one is free to enjoy without guilt.

My SO is strong and dominant by nature, we do not make love in the "traditional" sense rather it's, dirty, hard, rough, cruel, violent yet glorious.

He can make me beg to be used for his pleasure, he has me so aroused & under his power that I will do whatever he says to get some orgasmic/pain relief.

The humiliation / female inferiority drew me in like a moth to a flame, burning me as it id. It is a craving, it's addictive and intoxicating . . . this can be achieved by words, a look, or physical demonstration.

If there is anything you'd like to know . . .feel free to ask.