Honestly, I empathise with you a lot on being attracted to older men. But I've had a few really bad experiences with them where I've felt like a piece of meat and taken advantage of after, and now I'm soured towards them.

It's got me questioning guys' intentions EVERY TIME an older man shows interest in me whereas I didn't care before, and I hate it. I used to feel like an equal. I'm considering 'ditching' older men for good because they make me nervous and scared, tbh.

The point is I don't want you to feel like that in the future. Please be really careful about the older men you go with: if at any point you get a paedophilic vibe or you feel that there's something wrong with them, walk away. I didn't walk away one time and I'm still paying for it now.