Hello there friend. :) i like the way you write. Pretty far into the denial spiral here too! The sauce is king it seems. My body is struggeling, i have liver failure or fatty liver. Still the sauce wins. I am a bit lonely i think sometimes, but then i imagine being with someone i love, and i picture a scenario where i sneak down into the basement for some sauce. What are your plans for today you brilliant dude/dudette? :) first of all you need to survive. maybe not admit to some place when you're desperate. do it when you're calm. You have time to figure this out. Even though you haven't figured it out yet. Thank you for your message, people on ca are very kind.