See the thing is I feel like its not even about the wiring anymore. I feel like my brain, in many parts , is actually dead. I sustained many many blows during my recovery. My doctor fucked up and told me i didn't have a concussion when I went to the hospital 9 hours after the concussion.

He cleared me for all activities. So I went shadow boxing the next day as it was my usual routine to work out. Had improper technique as I was relatively new and shook my head around alot. Went home, slept and felt confused as crap all of a sudden. Thought my bed was a training shed. In my sleep I also managed to slam my face with my shoulder, not even sure why. Developed a loud ringing and 3 terrible days afterwards without much memory at all.

On the 5th morning, I was....idk wtf happened to me. I accidentally knocked the front of my head slightly and was rubbing it. Somehow I kept rubbing and pushing it for hours after that (through the night basically as I couldn't sleep and was rather depressed, it distracted me), very firmly. Kinda just switched off my thinking. Apparently I pushed too hard many times, but my brain did not react negatively. Only 3 hours later did I suddenly feel very very dazed and had a huge headache.

Then 2 days later a box fell on my forehead, followed by a heavy pillow the next day. So i'm thinking that my frontal lobe is completely and utterly destroyed. and its not just the connections but the brain cells themselves which have died. Till today I am unable to think clearly (weird sentence structure in my head) and am taking in everything very very slowly.