I'm so fucking sick of living in this world. This world of uncertainty. Not knowing anything. And feeling like I have to have these crazy ultimatums to get any sort of answers, only to feel like I'm just choosing what I want to believe in anyway. I just see what I want to see. That's how I feel.

I'm tired of this. I'm tired of maybes. I have a whole life full of these. I'm over this. I'm over dealing with you, and people like you. All of your different iterations are too much. I'm over it. I seriously. Seriously. Just want to leave. And not deal with any of this. I'm tired of feeling like I'm getting treated like an angsty bitch! I'm so fucking tired of dealing with this! I'm so fucking tired of being reminded of why I need to be left alone. I'm so fucking tired of feeling like it's useless to even say anything at all. I'm so fucking tired of living here, with you invisible fucking fucks. I want to leave, and go where it's no longer a factor. I have no words I can say to describe any of this, and what do I get? A bunch of stupid fucking numbers that dont mean shit and more uncertainty that I can draw from to make my own personal hell of my own creation. I fucking hate you, and I fucking hate this. I'm so tired. Im so tired of everything...