Awww... kinda hate these because I'm trying to generally stay positive and not really delve into my psychiatric issues. Then again, talking or writing about them can be helpful, so:

I've been officially diagnosed by a psychiatrist with Major Depressive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, and Insomnia. I've had one doctor and one counselor suggest I may have mild Agoraphobia.

Truth is, I think my psychiatrist has misdiagnosed me, and I haven't brought this issue up with her yet. It's not a good idea to self-diagnose and I will at some point bring this up to my psychiatrist, but I'm convinced that I have bipolar II. I have all the symptoms including the negative reactions to antidepressants. It's said that bipolar (and bipolar spectrum) sufferers generally don't do well on antidepressants, and in the case of bipolar II, antidepressants are even worse, especially when not taken with a mood stabilizer.

So basically I have these long bouts of depression that can leave me bedridden for weeks to months. Then a light switch comes on and I'm on the other side of the spectrum, I have these wonderful thoughts about my future, these, "Yes I can!" thoughts that lead me down a path toward reconnecting with old friends, making plans and taking action toward improving my career goals, and trying to improve myself in general, like exercising, reading, listening to music again, and just smiling more.

Then the switch turns off and I feel embarrassed. A few weeks or so filled with high energy and optimism; the things I did, the things I said I would do... all abandoned. I feel like a liar, too. When I'm in my hypomanic state it never occurs to me that it's only temporary, and that I'll be back to my depression and anxiety.

The only symptom I haven't talked to my psychiatrist about is that my Depression, Anxiety, and Insomnia, regularly come and go. To her, I'm just depressed, anxious, and have trouble sleeping; garden variety neurosis. I'm 99% convinced that this isn't the case. Cherry on top? I'm afraid of getting on a mood stabilizer or atypical anti psychotic to stabilize my mood swings. I've had too many bad experiences with SSRIs and SNRIs to make that leap into taking a mood stabilizer or atypical anti psychotic.