Thank you everyone for your responses and advice (including those of you who messaged me just to call me a terrible person, as I needed a dose of shame, and even those of you who messaged me to called me a whore - I get off on being called a whore, so joke’s on you!)

Not sure if anyone will even see this comment now, but I’ve decided not to go through with it. I never in a million years thought I would be the type of person to cheat, but the temptation became so strong that it wore on that certainty which made me question everything. I wanted to peek down that path that I never thought I would step foot on - so I posted here partially to see what it would feel like to be that kind of person, to see if it’s really who I am after all. But all of your comments/messages helped bring this out of fantasy land and into real life consequences, and I was tossing and turning all last night with nightmares and walked around all day feeling like a monster. So clearly it’s time to turn back because this obviously isn’t for me, and I’m very grateful to all of you for helping me see that.

Wishing all of you every happiness, as well as clarity in all of your decisions.

Thanks r/adultery :)