I've never posted here before, pardon my text wall. TL;DR available
In 2015, I picked up a 3D modeling program, something I'd never thought I'd do since I figured I wasn't good with any sort of art related thing. In a single summer, I had created a game, 3 short animations, and several renders. I decided that I would build a portfolio and pursue animation in college.
There's just one problem: I'm actually a terrible artist.
Now I know what you're thinking, "Why in gods name are you doing animation then?" and the truth is, there's honest to god nothing else I'm good at. Not many things interest me outside of media related things (animation, writing, gaming, etc). I've spent so much time feeling negative about my skills as an artist, comparing myself to others, telling myself I lack creativity, seeing anything I make as terrible. At this point, I've completely lost the drive to actually make something. I'll get an idea but I can't execute it. It's frustrating. The last time I did a big project in Blender was for a visual arts class in High school. It was a 2-minute long animation. Everyone that had seen it said it was actually pretty good.
For my last year of HS, I tried to do something different. All I did was compare to what other people were making and I felt out of my element. I felt like it was a horrible mistake to think I could learn to become a better artist. Hell, most of my Blender work is out of tutorials. My own solo things are far from being as good. It's like I've completely run out of motivation to get better. and that worries me.
Now I'm going into an art fundamentals program in September. Hopefully to get better and build a portfolio. I can't stop thinking about how this is a terrible idea. How I'll never get better at something I probably wasn't too good with in the first place.
Is there anyone out there who was in a similar predicament and can offer me some advice on getting my motivation back?
TL;DR: I want to pursue animation courses in college, but I'm currently lacking the motivation to practice so I can get better with drawing, modeling, etc. How can I regain my lost motivation?