I say SA since I didn't know if I could say rape on this post without it being deleted or something, I don't really post much. I was 12 he was 17, told me he'd kill my family if I told anyone and as a 12 yr old would I believed him. Drug dealer was his profession but I was buying off of him and he wouldn't take no for an answer. They were all acquaintances basically so I guess I just have shit luck and was in the wrong crowds, wrong place, wrong time but how does one person end up this unlucky I just can't wrap my head around it sometimes. I just had to get it off my chest that it felt abnormal for it to happen multiple times I thought I'd never have to deal with it again after the first time, let alone the second. I'll never go out to a party again. Thanks for your detailed response.