Oh jeez I'm really sorry for the trauma. And yeah ouch, wtf dude. CBD is actually legal every where. It's the THC or what most people smoke/vape that's illegal. I bought the Foria whilst living in the state IL and THC was illegal even medicinally at the time. But Foria will send to most states which is awesome. But I get what you're saying.. idk.. I feel like if he cant accept a less sexual relationship and understand you cannot perform due to pain, and he still doesnt care for your well being then.. it could be a good idea for couples therapy (not just for married people) or even worst case scenario have him remain as a friend, w/o benefits even. But that's my advice and I dont expect you or anyone reading this to take my advice fully. Maybe use as a guide or completely ignore it. I do hope all comes to a good end for whatever you decide to do though. :)