I was raped and was cut up with a knife by a stranger when I was about 11. For awhile, I considered it "losing my virginity," but now I don't really consider it that way (even if it is 'technically' true). It messed me up for quite awhile and completely changed the dynamics of my romantic relationships.

I am in my mid-20s and have never had a hookup and probably never will. The idea of sex with a stranger makes my stomach churn. I tried once, but I couldn't do it. I can however have sex in a trusting relationship with no troubles at all. I dress modestly, I don't drink or use any substances that make me feel less control over myself, so plenty of guys have thought that I'm some kind of a prude.

Even if someone goes through an extensive amount of treatment, some things don't really change. On the plus side, I'm a very nurturing and patient guy. I tend to find myself in a caregiver type role (cooking, cleaning, addressing other basic needs a guy might have), perhaps as a way of supplementing the limited amounts of sex I have. I also tend to have really long relationships because I emphasize building trust, conflict resolution, etc. My current relationship is quickly approaching a decade.