nah you're just playing dumb in the hopes that in your small world you will somehow show me how smart you are. there is nothing that can change your mind, you don't want to learn or to grow, you need to prove to yourself you are smart, because you fundamentally know you aren't and you just can't accept that. it's too much of a pain to face, so instead you're forcing it not knowing exactly what you're going to do, hoping the gods will cut you a break and "make is so" you come out on top. a dream you always chase, thinking that this intellect thing is fundamentally about luck. that day will soon come, when you get lucky, and show everyone who the real smart one is.