Since I know a bit more about your immer workings now than I did a few years ago I realize that thoughts of not loving me anymore..indian pussy..fuxk you...killing yourself..love me..hate me..

Whatever it is..those emotions sweeping thru you..are trying to reach out to me..maybe..maybe as a pier...in this storm..

I get that and have happily obliged for so long. Protecting myself is all well ans good but when you care for someone..its hard to resist..and you know that..so maybe you are feeling tbose emotions or not for me ..i don't know because I don't have any clue ehats happening in your life

I.thknk you think you love this new bf...so I'm trying to retreat until and of you want tomhave coffee or send me word..but seeing the hate and anger in you here...and then getting that response up there..????

Is confusing and something I need to preotext myself from unless you are willing to help me out..with some transparency but that aint happening...

Anyways that's it for.the night ..night..