This is a terrible feeling. I feel you. Last year I went through hell with my girlfriend (now ex). I juggled my studies and did everything I could to help her get through the semester (mental illness). I had my last exam on the 23rd I recall and went to go see her, finally free of the stress of school so I could devote all of my energies to helping her feel better and when I get there she just ignores me. She goes to sleep and I find a condom in her apartment that had nothing to do with me. Confronted her. She cheated because I wasn't there for her one time (I was studying). Since then she has constantly tried to reenter my life and in my own newly acquired moments of intense mental illness, I've let her back in. She tells me that I was controlling and manipulative of her while she was struggling with her mental illness and that it hurt her more than she ever hurt me. All I tried to do was keep her company and help her through; sometimes trying new, more direct methods to get her enthused about life... and now she's told me so much shit about it that I feel bad for trying to be a good person all that time. And this year she's doing fine while I'm saddled with a depression that won't budge, and it's effecting me badly, and she's still texting me, and I take drugs to help me focus every day but it's a real gamble because more than half the time they just make me anxious, so I drink myself to sleep or abuse benzos or whatever and then I wake up and my mind feels like TV static and I send pathetic emails to my instructors begging for exceptions to the rules because I just can't control the feelings in my head, and they allow it, time and time again, but I know I'm just sinking deeper and deeper into some kind of hole with every exception I have to ask for, degrading myself. Can't ask a doctor for pills yet because I know how those first few weeks feel and I'd be unable to do a thing. I don't know how I make it through the days.

But I'm sure you'll be fine OP. I'll be you're a real well-rounded person and this won't faze you for long. Hit the gym. Male or female, it don't matter. Endorphins are good.