omg. thanks for this post! finally something relatable. actually, i don't really know if it's a crush of mine but yeah...

there's this guy and we are under the same college department, same year. we're also classmates in some subjects. wala naman akong pakialam sa kaniya noong una and i barely noticed him but he approached me regarding a group work. we're the total opposite. i'm harsh, aloof, and he's a bit soft for a guy, which is why i found him annoying at first kasi di talaga ako sanay. he seems pabebe and courteous eh sanay ako sa mga lalaking tarantado at loko-loko.

eventually, we became close. i find myself smiling, lumalabas yung kakulitan side ko sa kaniya kahit mataray talaga ako madalas. tanggal angas minsan. tho i'm actually talkative when i'm comfortable with someone.

may mga bagay pa rin na ayaw ko sa kaniya like, siguro dahil sarcastic ako, hindi niya madalas gets ang humor ko and he's a bit sensitive. the problem is– i don't want to fully judge him because hindi pa naman kami nagmemeet personally since we're still in pure online setup. baka magclick pala kami sa personal.

he's my first friend in college (i think? if we're even friends) and he's actually friendly to most of our classmates so i'm not assuming anything. also, i don't want to get attached dahil baka pag nakahanap na siya ng close friends, mababalewala na rin ako. not impossible kasi he's good looking, too.

sumagi na sa isip ko na bawasan yung interaction namin, layuan muna siya but the thought alone makes me so sad. i guess i'll just enjoy whatever we have right now :)