Thanks for your kind words. Actually I barely can't even leave the house since 4 years anymore because of stuff that happened. And I'm seeking out help since even before but.... I was even declined by mental Institution because my situation was too worse and for another one I waited over a year to call me back when they have a free bed and every few weeks when I re-called they were pissy. Turned out in the end they.... fucking lost my papers and thats why I wasn't even on the list.

And on friday i'm turning 30 and I will be completely alone as I was when I turned 20 or 18. Personally... I wish I would have burned because it would have spared me all the shit of the last years.

I really appreciate your kind words.... I just wish someone would have treated me like that because nowadays I'm just pure misery and nothing else is left of me.