Part 1:
"So for background lang i’m still a virgin but i really wanna have sex." ➡️ Okay no judgement that you're still a virgin, kahit you're in your 30s or 40s pa! Why do you really want to have sex?
"But the problem is i am extremely antisocial and introverted." ➡️ This is also normal. There's this book by Susan Cain on the power of introverts and so it's not necessarily a problem.
'Hindi ako nagseseek ng companion or relationship just sex." ➡️ Still a fair point. We don't need other people to be complete
"I can admit to myself that i am ugly haha and it doesn’t bother me anymore." ➡️ By the time I got to this part though, I began wondering if you're not interested in relationships or companionship because you think you're ugly. People don't see their value for various reasons. This might be one of yours, but also you said that it doesn't bother you anymore so I'm wondering what that means to you. Is it acceptance or masking acceptance?
"Hindi ako yung type na pumoporma" ➡️ Not even a problem. Yung ex ko butas-butas damit niya pero solid siyang tao. Di lang aligned values namin pero mabuti pa rin siyang tao. Di siya maporma at okay lang yun. Minsan naman pag-feel niya pumoporma naman siya. Na-a-appreciate ko siya on both occasions.
"at hindi ako lumalabas ng bahay masyado so medyo mataba ako." ➡️ I'm just one person here pero promise di lahat ng tao weight yung hanap para sa attraction. I'm going to have to delete my previous serious comments elsewhere to be able to mention nsfw things here - but I want you to know that not having a model's body is not a problem. It's actually more about your confidence and vulnerability. Naalala ko yung dad bod (idk if I'm using the term properly), sobrang tuwang-tuwa kami sa isa't-isa. We truly enjoyed each other's company because he actually allowed himself to be vulnerable. And he felt comfortable with me so i felt comfortable with him too.
"And to be honest lang, Ayaw ko mageffort to “improve myself”.Nde lng kse ako yung tao na ganun." ➡️ When you say hindi ka ganung klaseng tao, what do you mean? Ako i hated it when meron akong mga usiserang tita na wala nang magawa sa buhay kundi mag-comment tungkol sa katawan ko. The only time I really took my health and fitness seriously was when I got sick. Won't disclose what happened but my doctor told me I needed to be healthier for my own sake and for my dreams. That's when nag-effort ako. Idk if people around you have been terrible to you, but usually i notice that's when there's resistance to do things for "self-improvement". Ako kasi umabot ako sa point na pwede pala akong mamatay, na dun ko lang na-realize na shet, legit to