Yeah, I agree, and I'm speaking as a narcissist/narcissistic/etc person myself. I just feel tremendous sadness and anger that my family created or at the very least severely exaggerated this pathology in me but I'm the one who suffers. I know others suffer from my behavior as well but I'm the one who lives it 24 hours a day. It feels so unfair. I was a child. It wasn't my idea to almost literally spoil me rotten with material things and then turn around and emotionally and physically and psychologically abuse me. The things I went through were criminal, and I was the youngest child. Lying and charm was just me protecting myself. Against my "family," who everyone in my life but me is ironically and twistedly so obsessed with. I know you're a stranger but it feels like I can't win.