i think transitioning is worth it, and in any case, if you're dissatisfied or anxious, you can boy-mode it up and do stuff like bind your breasts

i think most people inevitably pass after a few years on estrogen / testosterone but early HRT is a sweet spot of intense anxiety, paranoia, and like, moodiness / irrationality, so you go all doomer mode and 'my life is over' for a year or so until you realize things aren't actually that bad.

could be survivorship bias, but in my experience most people don't really care that you're trans unless you're 'in their face' about it, then you get harassed over it- so it's best to sort of keep a 'to yourself' attitude like as if you're on a subway while you focus on passing / gender shit