Fellow member of recovery reporting in!

Glad to know I'm not the only one doing sessions whilst recovering from an addiction. I've been having sessions multiple times a week for almost a month now and can say I feel the same way. I've seen it said that the "magic" of an LSD experience needs some months to reappear, otherwise it will indeed become dull.

I have been dosing real small at first (~25ug) progressively up to a ~200ug experience yesterday and can now say that I've gotten what I came to learn. My first time taking LSD was at 15, then a spurt at 18, and now at 21; and each gaggle of sessions worked to help me form myself into an individual I can be proud of today. Since it hasn't ever caused direct harm, even now abstaining from all other substances, I see no reason it shouldn't be indulged in.

That being said, however, I have to accept my compulsory use. Dosing even multiple times a month is somewhat overkill. Even though I learned a lot each time this past month, part of me knows that I've been giving in to that instant gratification part of me that caused so much ruin in my life before.

I'm happy you've reached this conclusion, as though it may be hard to swallow, it's a good honest look at habituation and how it may not serve you to keep certain habits up. I'm not definitively sure how I know I'll be ready for my next experience, but it'll certainly be at another time in my life when I've accelerated my growth via my "sober" mind as opposed to a boost from a substance.

Remember: anything learned during a session was always already there, simply waiting to be seen a certain way. Much Light and Love to you on your journey. PM me if you want to discuss tripping in recovery more, as it's a topic I'm steadily trying to learn more about.