I'm so moody and I never know what I want. As much as I want active, crazy, intense porn-inspired long sessions every day, if I can be patient and limit sex to every other day or once every three days, he will initiate and give me his full attention and will give me exactly what it is I'm looking for, whether it's all about me, intense face fucking, rape fantasy, pain play, or role play as long as I keep it simple. What he won't do is give me any of that if I'm passive-aggressive, I pout, I cause a scene, or I otherwise act like a child when I don't get my way. At best, he'll let me blow him to shut me up. At worse, he'll yell at me, tell me to get my shit together, and roll over and sleep. I would say 90% of these incidents are fueled by drinking, specifically my drinking.

It was a total mindfuck when we first started dating because I had never really been turned down by a guy for sex before. I'm a walking example of why perpetuating the myth that all men want is sex and all men want sex more than women can be absolutely devastating the female psyche. It's also an issue of maturity. I've definitely been forced to grow up a little bit and quit acting like an idiot, but I still slip up. A lot. He's very patient. All in all, I'd say the sex has gotten exponentially better but ends up being less frequent due to a slight difference in our libidos. I'm a 2-3 times a day person, he's a 5 times a week person. That's a difference you can make work, I think. He's also gotten somewhat better at not making me feel like I'm bothering him or that there's something wrong with me for wanting to have sex when he doesn't. Sometimes. There was a lot of blaming at first when I would want to go again and he wouldn't. Things like, "How can you want to have sex right now? We just had sex. What is wrong with you?" Nothing is wrong with me and some days I think he sees it that way and other days not so much. But then again, sometimes fourteen beers deep I'm a raging lunatic about it so who's to blame. He never really wants to talk about it, but then again we've never really gone longer than 4 days without some kind of sexual activity so maybe there isn't much to talk about. It still hurts sometimes though.