so on june 17, 2017 i decided to call it quits with my girlfriend of almost 4 years. reason why was because she stated that shes just "hanging in there" and "shes tired" and she didnt want to break her promise of leaving me again. i told her well if youre basing this relationship off a promise and youre not happy for whatever reason, lets just end it. i did everything i could possibly do as a boyfriend for the amount of time that her and i were together. i was literally there for her for everything.,
couple of hours after the break up, i found out from a mutual friend that she was cheating on me with a dude that i had my suspicions about while her and i were dating. i confronted her and she said that she was drunk and high, pushed her to the edge, and that i didnt want her like she wanted me. the thing is, i was with her for almost four years, why would i not want her?? i would be wasting my time and her time. plus, just because i didnt lust for her 24/7 does not mean i didnt want her. that same day, i immediately went to no contact.
give more insight, last year around april she broke up with me and started pursuing a co worker of hers. the day after that she broke up with me i found out who it was and she lied about it. i was devastated and was begging her to come back., she simply stated that she did not want to be with me anymore. after she said that, i went into no contact and started doing my own thing. month and a half goes by and she ends hitting me up wanting to work things out.
back to recent events, we do not follow her on any type of social media anymore. we were the couple that everyone knew about and we have a large group of mutual friends. i notice that whenever i post something on my ig story, she would look at it... everytime. this past week she made her page unprivate and posted a pic of herslef at the beach and something on her ig story. i didnt look at her ig story because she'll see that i did iguess she was trying to show me that shes doing alright ? it didnt really bother me. she eventually made her page private again and still looks at my story whenever i post something.
what do you guys think? do you think shes playing games? the past situation that i stated earlier is somehwat similar to the situation i am in now with her. despite what she did, i still love her and want to be with her but i know id be the biggest fool to go back to her.
also, im 23 and shes 22
i need honest opinions?