I understand this view very well. But your details went far beyond my own. I can't say I agree with it but I will say that this was very beautifully written that I can tell this is something you care deeply about and feel hurt and I can understand. I wish there was something I could say that can speak to you in a way you may believe. But I don't think anything I say will help this pain. I sympathize with you all too well. I understand and therefore I show empathy to your reasoning because I once held that same anger towards our Father and some ways I still do and I question His motives in the past because I can't comprehend ordering the killing of men women and children. I can't really be sure that He even gave the order to kill but there it is in the OT saying He did. I pray often to understand. And one day I know He will provide the answer.

From the Holy Spirit I feel the reason why He chose to come down to earth was because He felt compassion and wanted to share in our pain and suffering. He came down from the heavens and lived as one of us. To be killed and forsaken as one of us. He was tortured and beaten badly and He took it all. He felt the bretrayal, He felt the ridicule. He was denied more than once and this was His own creation doing this. I don't know any man or woman or child who could withstand any of that. But why did He do it? Why did He choose to humble Himself? I feel because He wanted us to know that He is like us and us like Him. We are all Sons of God. And in the end we will all be with Him on the new earth with new bodies. All that has ever died and will die will inherit this new kingdom with Him. And we will look back at it all and truly believe He did love us. So much that He took our sins upon Himself. And in this I'm deeply grateful. Because we have been chosen to be His bride. And in the millennia's to come there we will always remain with Him in happiness. Lions will lie next to sheep. Secrets made clear to us. No suffering ever again. No more bickering of who's right and who's wrong. It will just be. As it ever was in heaven. Amen.

Thank you for your honesty. Take care friend.