Hi. im new to reddit and don't know how to use it, but i figured that id find a page for loneliness here.
I don't know how to make close friends. im going to have no one texting me this break, im going to be on no ones mind. I cant hold a conversation, i cant hold eye contact, I don't know how to get close friends and i dont know where to start. I try to make plans, but no one wants to hang out with me, which sounds pathetic but its the truth. I wish i was autistic so atleast i had an excuse for being so socially incompetent. Theres just something fundamentally wrong with me. I could very well disappear and all my friends wouldn't mind. My high school is small, and all the people there know me by what a few people say about me. Theres no space for me here, that's what ive been told by some people. I wish i could take back some mistakes i made, i wish for a blank slate, a new school, but my mom wouldn't let me, as this is my fifth school in the past six years.
My life is so empty right now