lol they deleted it: Too bad i kept the tab open

[quote] To put it bluntly, I was raped by Laurelai Bailey in late October 2012, just as the whole violentacruz thing happened with CNN. This was a little over a month and a half before I posted the thread in SRD. She got me drunk and forced me to suck her off, penetrate her, and eat her semen. And then she left the basement room she did it in, and went up stairs to resume her stupid fucking reddit activities. I basically cried down there whilst drunk until I fell asleep. Laurelai became very adversarial with me, perhaps because of what she knew she did to me. But what I could not see at the time was Laurelai preparing to isolate me from my fellow SRSers. She began demonizing me. She got on a Minecraft server and started fucking up what little space I had away from her relentless & disturbing fixation on me. At one point, she took some things I said out of duress and brought them to my fellow SRS admin, who promptly demodded me and did the whole silent treatment on me. And there I was, I lost my friends, I lost greenduch's confidence. Any attempts to tell them what had happened to me in October were met with being ignored and told they weren't interested in hearing anything about Laurelai from me. So. I cracked. I went psychotic. I spammed the fuck out of their IRC channels until they banned me from them, and then Laurelai threatened to call the police on me, a thing she could have done at the time, and this you must keep in mind her status as the scum who had violated my body to get what filthy pleasure she could out of it, the piece of shit who had raped me. So, I did what a cornered dog that has been kicked one too many times, and bit them. I threatened to dox greenduch & Laurelai(who lived with each other). It never actually went out of PMs on IRC, I never actually doxxed anyone. But that sealed the deal. Laurelai had successfully isolated me. And I was so alone and scared. NekoArc, Laurelai's contentious fuck buddy, offered me a space in her community in exchange for me disparaging SRS & Laurelai on /r/SRSSucks[1] . I was basically coerced in a vulnerable mental state to choose between disparaging my rapist & her friends, or not having anywhere or anyone to support & be my friend. I did as NekoArc asked, and later, an SRS by the name of Tesseraction on IRC proceeded to manipulate me into editing the SRSSucks post into the stupid Brd spam that followed. Tesseraction would later emotionally abuse me until I distanced myself fully from them. Over the course of 2013, I tried reaching out to greenduch and my friends in SRS, and they labeled me a stalker, a monster, a fiend most horrible. And in January 2014, I outed Laurelai as having raped me via Twitter. And that resulted in my isolation from my fellow trans women. Nobody believed me, not a single person gave a fuck, not even my girlfriend, who, almost hilariously, was NekoArc. Someone I brought into my home, and got her proper medical care at a health clinic up in Chicago, IL. NekoArc began distancing herself from me as well. Started looking for someone else to fill my shoes, and perform the functions that I performed for her. And I spent 2014 waiting for maybe a word from another SRSer, something, something that might indicate they were aware of everything, despite messages where I tried to reach out, none were answered, and I gave up on greenduch ever pulling her head from her ass on the matter. And.. 2014 has led me to 2015, and here I am, and I've posted this thread, which will remain unedited. TLDR: ShitRedditSays admin covered up the fact that Laurelai Bailey raped me in /u/greenduch [2] 's basement that reeked of cat shit. Attempts to convey this to them were met with intimidation by top SRS members. I became a persona non grata. Nobody listened to me, nobody gave a fuck. /u/RobotAnna [3] terrorized me any time I felt like shit with reminders of her perception of what had happened in December 2012, which was to lay the guilt of threatening to dox Laurelai and IRC/subreddit spam that I did in retaliation to my excommunication while I was suffering from a psychotic episode. I never doxxed anyone. I spent 2013 trying to convey this to SRSers, greenduch, RobotAnna, none of them gave a single fuck. RobotAnna even denied I was raped & isolated me from what few friends I had started to make in late 2013. And I'm tired, so fucking tired of carrying this heaven burden around with me. I'm leaving it behind. Take from this thread what you will. I tried my best to be a good person. I'm sorry for my failings, but people need to know that I was raped by Laurelai Bailey, and the role that SRS played in covering it up for /u/greenduch [4] & Laurelai Bailey.[/quote]