everyone sins bro have u heard of the story of prophet Nuayman? dont guilt and reject urself out of Islam. the guilt means u have a good heart but ur just struggling imo

“Say My slaves who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins) Do not despair of the Mercy of Allah: verily He forgives all sins. Truly He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”

(39:53)

“And whoever does a wrong or wrongs himself, but then seeks forgiveness from Allah, he will find Allah forgiving and merciful.”

(4:110)

“Lo! Allah is a Lord of Kindness to mankind, but most of mankind give not thanks.”

(2:143)

“And seek Allahs forgiveness. Certainly, Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.”

(73:20)

“And it is He who accepts repentance from His servants and pardons the evil deed and knows what you do.”

(42:25)

It was narrated by Abu Ya‘la in his Musnad (176), Abu Nu‘aym in al-Hilyah (3/228) and ad-Diya’ in al-Mukhtaarah (92) from ‘Umar (may Allah be pleased with him) that a man had the nickname Himaar (donkey) and he used to give the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) a gift of a vessel of ghee and a vessel of honey. When the owner thereof came to ask him to pay for these things, he would bring him to the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) and say: O Messenger of Allah, give this man the price of his goods, and the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) would do no more than smile and give instructions that he be paid. One day he was brought to the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) having drunk alcohol. A man said: O Allah, curse him, how often he is brought to the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him)! But the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Do not curse him, for he loves Allah and His Messenger.”