A good place to start would be when I was very little: every night I'd be sitting on the stairs crying to both my parents trying to tell them I wasn't who they thought I was. I felt like I was lying to them or something like that, it was as if I wasn't really made to live in this world, because who I was didn't seem to match what was asked of me at all. It was very stressing. I guess that's when I noticed I was trans, though I didn't really know it like that at the time.

I first noticed gender dysphoria around the beginning of high school (English high school, so year 7). Everyone was starting to visibly hit puberty- getting breasts, facial hair etc. Long story short, I hated it. I was jealous of all the girls and annoyed with my situation. What didn't help was that I found some of those girls attractive, so I thought this jealousy was a weird sex thing, which made it tougher to deal with and/or understand. Those feelings from when I was smaller came back, this time much stronger and clearer. There was also mental gender dysphoria as well, not just physical issues. I had a lot of issues with my first boyfriends because they were gay- which sounds odd in any other context, I just didn't like that I couldn't be their woman/girlfriend. They didn't treat me like a woman, they'd treat me like they would a boyfriend- and understandably so! I remember when I learned about periods.. I cried for something like 3 hours or more, it was just another thing to learn about that a woman has to go through, and something I'd never experience. My mom did not expect that reaction.

Blergh, this is a bit long, I just started typing and kept typing! I think this has been good for me to get some of this stuff out. How about you? And also, why did you ask?