Yeah , good luck to you . i realized my low self esteem wasn't caused by who i was actually . i created an uglier version of myself in my mind and started hating myself cause i thought i was that uglier version . Fortunately i recieved a lot of complements from people and one day i looked in the mirror to realize i was actually good looking and that i was hating a pseudo version of myself rather than my original self. it was more of a brain dysfunction and i'm trying to fix that dysfunction . Sadly , no matter how good i become or how much i work on myself . i might still get the self-hate anytime due to the dysfunction .i could be chris hemsworth and still hate myself lol . but i'll have to try .