I really struggled with this, I'm not normally someone that their anger gets the better of them or snaps at people. I think I've yelled or raise my voice only while I've been grieving in the last 15-20 yrs.

When I finally thought I was ok enough to be around people I visited my mum as she is a safe person and understood my pain. We were meant to cook together and relax. I fucking lost my shit at a tea-towel, another time as she didn't put the kettle on early enough. A tea-towel and a kettle...

I really mean I lost it and it escalated into other random unrelated shit that I ranted about. I felt so bad, thankfully my mum knew that I was grieving and understood. 5mins later and I'm thinking I'm a proper twat and apologised.

I really struggled with mundane stuff getting me angry. Like shopping behind someone walking slowly or spending ages reading ingredients so I can just grab what I want. Anything that would be mild infurating just annoyed me to absurd amount. I found myself muttering and swearing, maybe a little to loudly.

Mate, be kind to yourself it's a lot of pain to process. The worst part is grief isn't linear and you can cycle between stages. I snapped at someone the other day, I haven't snapped in a while but I just got so angry. The best advice I can give is apologise if you do snap at someone, you don't need say why just apologise.