You make a lot of assumptions, I didn't go into depth on everything I do. This isn't a gun subreddit so I didn't go into detail. I know the situation is rare. I don't, "just rely on whipping it out" I do train. I do practice in some form every day. I don't assume I can handle any situation, but I train for the worst. I also wouldn't just let an attacker kill me, hell, I'd prefer to win the fight. I do just try to live bravely, I'm certainly not looking for an opportunity to die violently. The dreams being a sign was just something I was thinking about, I can never know anything for certain. No man knows his own fate, but that doesn't stop them from wondering.