I want to rent a house in the desert, take my guitar stack and some guitars and effects, buy a 100 foot long cable.

I want to strip buck naked, strap on the guitar, plug it in, stand 100 feet away and still be able to hear it loudly.

And I want this to happen in a situation where no other human will see or hear it.

And yodel, man. Fucking yodel and make every horrible noise with my guitar and my voice that would get me arrested and committed to an asylum. Just let fucking loose. And be bare ass bucked out nekkid the hole time, my dick and man boobs and flabby ass flopping all over the place.

Totally a nonsexual thing. I just want to be free from any constraints, 99% of the constraints being self-imposed by self conscious bullshit.

I will walk my middle aged fat ass down Main Street in a speedo without breaking eye contact but I fucking hate my voice and I don't like noise.

Anytime you can be free from something, anything (but mostly from your own bullshit), that's an amazing feeling.