I'm sorry I have read only tldr. I relate to your struggle with art. Personally I can say that I resonate much more with art that is obviously made about personal issues. It seems true and holds meaning. I think ultimately you need to do something for yourself first, doing it for attention/praise/similar things never holds up, bc eventually they lose meaning. Although I find it necessary to do art for others too, but I make peace with it by thinking that my experience is probably matching others in many ways, so if I can put those on paper, hopefully I would help someone else to explain those.
I could not draw for long time because of the trauma, bc sadly people were attacking my art specifically, while it was my only way to connect, but it's better now.