First thing I had to do was take stock of whatever subconscious habits I may have had to self sabotage without knowing it

Realizing that wasting money on random shit I didn’t need was a self defense mechanism to rationalize not spending money to actually out and do things where I could meet people and get rejected. Oh, this event is $20? Can’t do that. Admission is $10? Nah. I don’t wanna pay for drinks. It’s free? I don’t wanna parking. All horse shit. I would drop twice that on snacks and useless subscriptions and then turn around like I couldn’t afford to go out. You gotta break down the root of your BS beyond what’s obvious