COVID has shown me I will always be a loser

All it takes is one day for a miracle to happen.

That is not going ot happen. I will be living in poverty the rest of my life. I am to stupid to get into the nursing program at my school. I am unloveable. That is why my parents abused me. Other people look at me and see this. That is why I was raped. I was sexually abused as a child because the abuser saw I was worthless. People pick up on these things. They know they can hurt me and I don't matter to anyone so they will get away with it. I am a very unloveable and unlikeable person. If you are a man, I am the women that you pump and dump. I suck your cock. You tell me "your not good enough to be my gf." and then you ghost me. You come back when you want your cock sucked. Other than that I am useless.

If I kill myself, it will be better. My friend could sell my house. He needs the money anyway. He has a family. I have no one. I am a waste of space.

My life is not precious. I am better off dead.

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