Here’s a place to start: if you’re a skinny weird loser, stop listening to what you have to say. In your current mental state, you sound like a whiny little bitch, so all the shit you’ve been posting is coming from a whiny depressed brain. Why would you listen to that? Try listening to someone who used to be a loser and is now not a loser. You seem to have some standards and are obviously capable of SOMETHING if you make $200K. You want a wife and children. That’s a great thing. You just have shitty programming for thoughts. You said your dog is dying…go to the pound and adopt a young dog. That mutt would be grateful and you’d save it from being put down. You can walk it every day. Get some sun. You’re probably Vitamin D deficient.