English translation: Part 1

I have been thinking for a long time about what to write here. I have wanted to do this for a very long time but it is difficult for me to find the right words and I don't really know where to begin.. Those who are from my culture don't really have any contact with swedish people or foreigners, I am completely separated from swedes and their culture in my everyday life. But I guess that I can try to explain how I am different from others and why I live isolated from them. I hope that this can be some more uplifting news considering what has happened in Stockholm lately, but I do want to point out that I have been planning this for a very long time. It just seems like there is a major event every week now and I never find a good time to do this.

First: I would highly appreciate if you can help me spread information about this AMA on other forums on reddit, swedish forums and english forums. Upvotes would also help me much more than you think.

My name is Frejr Ívarr Kékr (I think you would pronounce this in your language as Frejer/Frayer, I-varr, Kek. I have more names but I want to keep some anonymity.) I come from southern Sweden, I am 208cm (6'10”) and still growing, I have blue eyes and blonde hair that has started to become more light brown in some places with age. I have pure ethnic swedish blood but I am very different from outsiders (swedes) so I think it is difficult to see myself as swedish.. I would really like to see myself as swedish and I don't have any hatred towards swedes in general, but I don't have much in common with them these days. My language, my culture, my behavior, my food – everything is different from how they live in modern times but I think that I could have fit in quite well before everything changed. I see myself as a patriot to a good extent, I would very likely be willing to go to war to protect Sweden from an invasion, mostly because I don't want Sweden to be ruled by another country and people. I have supported som patriotic politicians before, mostly a local politician because his policies could have helped me a lot and I think his political party could do good things for Sweden as a country. My culture is not as illegal today as it used to be even though not everything is legal and there is no longer a death penalty for those that keep to our traditions which was the case early on, but there are still many things that can be improved.

My kind were always our own tribe that lived separated from swedish people. As a group and mostly induvidualistc people we would usually live in the forests and mountains, not on farms or as fishermen. Instead of growing crops and raise cows or lambs, we would hunt for our food or in some other way find food where we lived. We had good relations with swedish people most of the time, atleast as a group, but there were individuals that weren't liked by them. Some of us lived in swedish villages or close to their farms, some even had their own farms but it was more rare, which could cause issues sometimes. But even for those that did not live amongst their cultures would have no issues with trading with them when it was needed but we mostly just tried to keep to ourselves and our own tribe when it was possible. Some of us found work as warriors or security guards for kings, our sons were more raised as warriors and we were viewed by many as elite soldiers at that time in this area and were paid a lot of money for our work, but when we were within the borders of modern Sweden, we would always refuse to be integrated and obey their kings. Even though the culture is very individualistic, which is a big reason why some would choose themselves where they wanted to live and if they were going to travel somewhere, we have always had our own rulers, laws, our own society and we have never accepted outsiders to be apart of us. We have our own culture and stories that binds us together and if you don't come from the specific bloodline then you can't be one of us, but at the same time we have never been against marriage to swedish women from other cultures based on that the bloodline comes from the man and not the woman. The bloodline is very important in my culture and I don't think that many swedish people or anyone in foreign countries today can really understand the concept, they don't seem to talk about that in the same way. When I for example say that I am of pure swedish blood, it is based on the view in my culture of christian immigrants to this area and it is something to be proud of, it raises my status within my culture to be able to say that I have never accepted to go against the traditions of the tribe and that I will not be leaving my culture. It is a major reason for why we still exist.

When the christians came, we separated much more than we had before because they would start genocide against us in the area where my ancestors lived, but some of us survived. When everyone else were converting we went underground and refused to have contact with outsiders for a long period of time to let everything calm down. There were radical christians that wanted to exterminate us on multiple occassions. Their soldiers never dared to attack grown men that were better trained, they instead would attack houses when a woman was alone with her children and some of them were murdered. That was one thousand years ago and nobody has been willing to talk to outsiders about us or accept to live opnely among them ever since. I have personally never answered questions about myself from outsiders before and there are no outsiders that knows anything about me. When I say that I am isolated from swedish society, I mean it: I am born and raised in Sweden just like all of my ancestors but I don't have a swedish ID card, passport, dental records and I haven't taken a public photo of myself in almost 5 years. I can obviously speak the swedish language and also english but I have always done everything I could to stay within my culture and among my own. My parents taught me swedish since I was a child, I learned english very quickly and I have always enjoyed studying in general, but especially other cultures because I want to understand them but I have never done that as a way to leave everything that I am and my entire history behind me.

One big detail that makes me different from Swedish people is food, I currently live in a small swedish town and there is almost nothing that I can eat here, there is only two items in the local store that gives me nutrition and one of them is too expensive.. This was a very big problem for me when I was younger, I grew up with parents that would cook modern swedish food for me and my body could never take in any nutrients from that. It acted like a neurological poison in my body, which was very difficult for me because I come from a family where almost everyone becomes a successful athlete and I have very good genetics for sports and fighting, but I was forced to stop playing sports at an early age as a teenager. My stomach can't process dairy products, wheat, rice, potatoes, pork.. My childhood was worse than any torture that you can possibly imagine. At first it slowed me down as a child, then I started to have problems with my knees at 11 (they would ”collapse” sometimes when I would run or walk), I could never enter puberty properly, I stopped growing taller and as a teenager it became difficult to walk and jump. I started to have heart problems after that and sometimes it felt like someone was crushing my heart in someones hand or something similar (I can't explain it better than that) but I never had serious brain issues except for being very tired and having problems sleeping.

I started to try to deal with these issues in May 2015. I found a diet that worked better than what I was eating before and stopped my heart problems very quickly but it was still very bad for me, I didn't find a great diet until the end of April 2016. It was like I just knew that this food was going to work without having almost never eaten it before. I received results in just two weeks but I was still eating other foods that made me sick. The problem was that my food costs a lot of money and it can hardly be found in the local store because nobody else eats it. There is only one item and they have maybe five of them for sale per week if I am lucky. I was forced to stop eating with this diet after 3 weeks.