Thanks for your reply. Yeah, that is probably the biggest problem so far. She was so gorgeous from like 18-20, then once she began her upper division undergrad studies, then a masters, plus moving away from family, working full-time etc. she put on like 30 lbs. I completely understand this happens, it has to me as well, but I reversed it, and though she tries to reverse it also, to no fault of her own, she is still working crazy hours, and it's just tough for her to do. I worry that we are going to get married, have kids, then go on the rest of our life and I will just never get the change to be with her at her best and get to see that side of her. She's so beautiful when she dresses up on a Friday night for date night, I can't get enough of her, it's just the other majority of the time I feel like, meh.