For me ssris are awful drugs

I'm in my 30s and have been on more meds than I can remember dating back to my teens. Most of which were SSRIs. I'm not a doctor and I know they have helped people including family members and friends, but I have been through absolute hell with them.
They all killed my libido which is the mildest of side effects I experienced. Lexapro is most likely to blame for the chronic migraines I've been dealing with since being on it. Cymbalta gave me panic attacks daily until I stopped it abruptly (bringing on even more issues). But the worst was Effexor. I had a shitty doctor who, after hearing me tell him I felt MORE suicidal after being put on it, he UPPED my doseage. Within 2 months, I was in the hospital from an attempt. In the course of the year and a half I was on it, I lost 25 lbs (I'm super skinny to begin with) and I slept on average 3 hours a night. The withdralw after tapering was the most intense I have ever experienced. It was close to a year of brain zaps, fog, numbness in my hands, and somehow even worse depression. Luckily it was so bad I couldn't even motivate myself to do anything drastic, lol.
Its been 5 years since I've been on any pharmaceuticals. Now I just eat mushrooms and go to therapy (not at the same time). Its working well enough.

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