No love life right now, other than the love for my friends, but oddly enough I'm pretty satisfied with my life overall.

It's strange because in the beginning I was extremely sad with the fact of being single. Over 6 years I've dated 4 guys, with not a single person wanting a serious relationship. The longest relationship I ever had was maybe 6 months.

There was a lot of internal blaming that followed right after like, "He was awful to me" to "I'll never be a loveable person." Recently, however, I've been able to cope with my situation. I don't know how I did it, or didn't even think that I could do it, but I can say now at the age of 22 that I'm okay with being single, and that I'm pretty happy and content.

There was a moment where I thought I was in denial, that maybe I'm just lying to myself thinking it's actually okay to be single. Only after questioning myself, I asked if there's really anything bad about my life other than the fact that I'm single. Being sincere, I can say that I'm honest with the way I feel, and that I'm not lying to myself at all. I'm happy that I'm doing great right now despite being single, and that I don't abhor anyone.

I don't lothe any of the guys whom I've dated. They were good people and great learning experiences. I still managed to stay friends with 2 of them. Some people do tell me I should just date casually, but I had a thought one day that going on a date is like having an interview, and ever since then I've been really turned off by the idea of dating haha. Besides, I think I rather get to know someone as a friend first before I fall intimately for him, which ultimately will take longer, but I've accepted that fact.

Since I'm still young, I've made the decision to take my time. I feel like there's no need to rush with finding a relationship. Instead I'll use the time to become the person I want to be and then slowly find the right guy for me one day.