14-year-olds: I have depression and anxiety and I'm super edgy LOL

Me, who is actually diagnosed with both by a doctor, who almost never goes out in public because I'm afraid people will think I'm mentally disabled, has a panic attack every other time I talk to someone, is completely friendless, who has no idea how to adapt my behavior to appear "acceptable," and who's brain forces me to endlessly think about suffering, pain, and how I've hurt others in inexplicably vivid and sleep-depriving ways no matter how hard I try to stop:

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Seriously, I find it so fucking offensive that people like that exist. It is virtually mockery of people who actually suffer from this shit. It isn't cool. It isn't fun. It is absolute hell! I would give my legs and my penis to be rid of this shit if I could. Seriously, I'd rather die a virgin that go through this for one more day. It isn't funny. It is disrespectful, through and through. People who see you laughing about extreme edginess take offense to it because they're actually extremely edgy. Sadness and shyness are different from depression and anxiety. What you call being edgy, I call living. Everyone is heartbroken and lonely and hates life from time to time. You'll be sad one day and get up the next. Me, though? I've been like this for years, and no amount of help is actually helping. I could go more in-depth if I wanted to, but that would kind of make me look stupid and be a waste of time. If you think you have MDD, go see a doctor about it. I know doctors aren't the most reliable sometimes, but if you really think your life is that fucked up, you need to go see somebody about it. Stop making us actually messed up people sit at the back of the bus and making yourself look like you have 70 IQ in the process.