(27/M) I fully agree. You are not alone! What you're describing, it's a power. It's special. Just hang in there and protect your feelings if you'd catch some at times. It's important, 'cause you're more vulnerable to seeing someone as something they will never want to be for you. A lot of gays can be really apathetic when it comes to actual deeper connection with another gay person. It clearly works for them, so that's great... but it can make someone else, who also needs a deeper connection, feel immensely bad and unappreciated. I've learned that much.

It's often almost impossible to make actual friends on apps like Tinder. They feel like you owe them sex and then "maybe they will want to be your friend" which ends up in nothing like a friendship at all usually. You live, you learn.

Often people will like to make you feel like you must be asexual or you must be into women (as well) because you why are you not up for fun like them? I've tried hooking up of course and it just wasn't that satisfying for me. It felt pretty draining.

It will take time to figure yourself out and to learn to read people better. Who are the real ones? Who care about you on a personal level? You will get there. Much love!